Tired of bs

So, for days another member and I were planning to meet. When the day finally arrived, she no showed at the meeting place. Now, she won’t respond on kik, even though I can see she read the messages, a_ Heidi:I realize to her I’m just a fan and things will never work out.(10 July 2018) Heidi:I’ve become [...]
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Freda:
Like I can't watch TV because it doesn't distract me enough and I do not go out very often so I just do not know what to do.
(12 July 2018)

Freda:
Today was a rough day at work and there were a few moments where I almost texted them because that is what I would have done anytime up until Tuesday night.
(12 July 2018)

Freda:
We were also very close so I knew I could count on them if I needed to talk, vent or just someone to hold me.
(12 July 2018)

Freda:
Before things started going bad we were discussing marriage and kids and had just adopted a puppy.
(12 July 2018)

Freda:
The 1st day we broke up I was fine because like I said I was expecting it but today all I could think about were the good times and perfect we were together.
(12 July 2018)

Freda:
Things have been pretty bad for little bit and I knew that we either needed to fix it or we would break up and because of this post you know how that went.
(12 July 2018)

Freda:
So I haven't had this level of attachment to anyone before.
(12 July 2018)

Freda:
We were together for about 2 and a half years.
(12 July 2018)

Freda:
This is also the longest relationship I have been in with the next closest being 4 months.
(12 July 2018)

Freda:
Okay so I am highly introverted so making new friends is hard and my closest friend is a 5 hour drive and most of the others are on the other side of the country or in a different one entirely.
(12 July 2018)