Be my dark secret

New Malden, Surrey, United Kingdom //meelp.com/profile/Totty2Go Carylon:I really miss her smile and her bangs falling over her nerdy glasses and the lovely way she smiles at me.(12 November 2016) Carylon:I was released from the hospital and she hasn’t left my mind since.(12 November 2016) Carylon:This girl sent me texts while I was in the hospital [...]
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Alease:
Not someone I'm with just because they love me and they're good enough.
(2 December 2016)

Alease:
I want to be with someone I love with all my heart.
(2 December 2016)

Alease:
And if I do finally meet someone, am I gonna have to settle?
(2 December 2016)

Alease:
The thought of dying alone makes me want to throw up and I don't know what to do about this.
(2 December 2016)

Alease:
I can't figure it out and it's scaring the crap out of me.
(2 December 2016)

Alease:
I'm not mean, I like to believe I'm a somewhat funny guy.
(2 December 2016)

Alease:
I'm not ugly, no one has ever told me I am.
(2 December 2016)

Alease:
Every time I see a couple, I get so unbelievably baffled at the sight of it because I feel like if that guy can get a girlfriend, I should be able to as well.
(2 December 2016)

Alease:
I am seriously starting to fear that this might be hopeless... I don't know what I'm doing wrong.
(2 December 2016)

Alease:
In all my life, I have never once gained the attraction of a girl, nor have I ever been on a single date with one.
(2 December 2016)